inspired and motivated...

well...
so much inspired right now that i jump off the bed to do some typing...

well...
i just finished watching the movie, "the rookie"
thought that i was just letting time pass by
never thought that i would be inspired by that movie
i thought it was a boring one...

huh...
i was just too inspired that i realized that i should persevere in everything i do...
actually...
i learned not to be a quitter...
how would i say that in positive tone?
na...
but.. it's just aiming and doing what you want and what you know is right...

i forgot to tell...
early this morning...
i go to chapel early at 7 to attend the sunday mass...
well...
the priest is a native one...
thank God...
and one more thing...
i'm also inspired on his reflection of the gospel...
it's all about getting yourself out of the box...

let me tell you 'bout his reflection...

most people tend to turn you down by just saying...
how can you do such thing,,,? you're such a loser...!
it's very impossible for you to do those things...
you can't do it...

you tend to believe to what people say to you..
you acquire all those traits and characters that they tell you who you are...
you tend to put yourself inside a box and close it... never try to open and go outside...

hey! wake up! it's not what you are!

your weakness is your strength...
how's that?
people always tell you that these are your weaknesses...
and you believe them...
yeah! maybe those things are true...
but maybe...
it's time for you to get up and do the best you can to overcome those weaknesses....
your weakness is your strength...
try to overcome those weaknesses...
when time comes that you do those things...
you'll be a better person...

i think...
all those things and signs that witnessed this day is used to wake me up...
after all what happened these few weeks...
i feel that i'm demoralized...
but after all what happened this day...
i'm charged up...
i feel so motivated to pursue all my dreams...
i feel that i can do it..
though many people tend to pull me down...
though they judge me of who i am...
i know i can do it!
God gave me all the signs...

i'm really happy today...
so happy that i cry...

from now on,
i promise myself to pursue all my dreams...
no matter what happen...
no matter what people say...
i know i'll bring home success...

i'll put this in my mind for all of my life...

tears...

alam ko kanina maraming nakakita sa kin...
grabe!
obvious na obvious naman kasi eh!
grabe!
naaasar lang talaga ako...
kasi...
aral ako ng aral tas marami pa kong mali...
as in...
binabasa ko pa nga yung mga discussion sa book bago ako magsagot...
naaasar lang talaga ako...
lagi na lang mali...
samantalang yung iba diyan..
pakopya-kopya lang...
as in yung sagot...
kinokopya lang sa iba...
di man lang naghihirap magsolve...
di ko na talaga mapigilan yung sarili ko...

inaaral ko yun...
sinosolve ko isa-isa..
halos di na nga ako matulog sa pagsasagot eh!

ngayong na-checkan na yun...
alam ko na yung mali ko...
at least alam ko na...
nakaka-bad trip lang kasi...
yung iba, ANG TAAS NG NAKUKUHANG SCORE...
pero NANGONGOPYA...

ilang araw na rin kasi akong nakakapansin sa mga scores ko...
lagi na lang ata akong lowest...
aral naman ako ng aral...

tas isa pa..
yung prof..
pinagpipilitan yung maling sagot...
kahit ipakita ko pa yung solution ko eh!
sure na sure ako sa sagot ko...
ang kulit lang kasi...
pinagpipilitan yung mali...

buti na lang, andyan ang BOGA...
pansamantala kong nalimutan yung mga yun...
pero pag-uwi ko...
mag-isa na lang ako...
na-iisip ko na yung mga nangyari sa scores ko...
bakit ang baba kahit na nag-aaral ako?
bakit yung mga nangongopya, ang tataas?
bakit napaka-unfair naman?
di lang ako makaiyak...
pinipigilan ko lang sarili ko...
nakakahiya...
nakasakay ako ng LRT...
daming tao...

pagdating ko ng bahay...
masakit na likod ko ng kakabuhat ng mga libro...
umiyak talaga ako ng todo-todo...
kelangan ko na talagang umiyak...

sabi na lang ng nanay ko...
aralin ko na lang uli...
tska pag nag-test...
di naman alam ng mga nangongopya kung pano mag-solve...
kopya lang sila ng kopya...

hay!
nailabas ko rin...
babalik din sa mga yun yung mga ginagawa nila....
makakabawi din ako...
alam ko ang sarili ko...
alam kong alam ko yung mga ginagawa ko...
alam ko kung san ako nagkamali...
alam ko na kung pano gawin yung mga mali ko...

UMPISA PA LANG NG SEM!