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I have a conversation with my mother this night..
We talked about my studies..

O tama na kakaingles...
Ninonose-bleed na ko..

Pinag-usapan namin yung tungkol sa nalalapit na paglabas ng resulta ng evaluation.
Napapansin ko kasi na karamihan sa mga classmate ko ay sobrang kinakabahan sa resulta.
Madalas kong naiisip at naitatanong sa sarili, "Bat ganun? Bat kinakabahan sila ng todo-todo?"
Kinakabahan din naman ako, pero di katulad ng iba na oras-oras kinakabahan.
Gabi-gabi, naiisip ko rin naman ung resulta ng evaluation pero pag naiisip ko yun, nagdadasal na lang ako..
At salamat sa Diyos! Nakakatulog naman ako ng mahimbing.

Naikukwento ko rin sa kanya na minsan napapagod na ako at sobrang nahihirapan.
Iniisip ko na lang na ang lahat ng hirap na dinadanas ko ay masusuklian din balang-araw.
Pero syempre, kahit gano ako mag-positive-thinking, dumadating pa din sa punto na nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa.
Natatakot din naman ako.
Syempre, di ko hawak sa kamay ko ang lahat.

Naikwento naman ng Nanay ko ang naidadasal niya sa Diyos gabi-gabi.
Sabi niya, ganito daw ang dasal niya:
"Alam Niyo po kung gano kalaki ang sinakripisyo ng anak ko sa pag-aaral.
Nakikita Niyo po ang lahat ng pag-hihirap niya.
Pero kung ano man po ang magiging kalalabasan nito.
Maluwag ko pong tatanggapin ang kaluoban Niyo."

Na-touch ako..
Sa totoo lang..

Di ko na ikwinento sa Nanay ko kung ano ang dinadasal ko gabi-gabi tuwing naiisip ko ang evaluations.
Tuwing gabi, heto ang aking dasal:
"Lord, tulungan Niyo po ako.
Alam ko po na hindi ako ganoong kasipag.
At minsan ay tinatamad din ako.
Hiling ko lang po na tulungan Niyo po ako sa evaluation.
Tulungan Niyo po ako.
Sa totoo lang po, gustong-gusto ko na pong maka-graduate.
Gustong-gusto ko na pong maka-graduate.
Ito lang ang naiisip kong paraan para masuklian lahat ng paghihirap ng Nanay ko.
Mapasaya ko man lang siya sa pamamagitan nito.
Tulungan Niyo po akong masuklian ang lahat ng pagod ng Nanay ko."

Sa bandang huli, isa lang ang pumasok sa isip ko.
Pinag-dadasal namin ng Nanay ko ang isa't-isa.

(teary eyes)

Can't sleep

Since the magnitude 9 earthquake hit Japan...
I can't sleep well at night...
I am so hooked up with that topic since I'm a Science-enthusiast...

This thing already happened to me when a magnitude 6 earthquake hit Haiti...
At that time, I learned about the Valley Fault System (previously called Marikina Valley Fault System)
That fault line runs across Luzon through Remedios, Montalban, San Rafael, San Mateo, Diliman QC, Marikina, Pasig, Taguig, Muntinlupa and Alabang (see Valley Fault System Index from PhilVolcs Website)
Well, it doesn't transect Antipolo City but the it is beside Marikina and above it is San Mateo..
Kinda near the Fault Line...
Wew...
Experts told that there was an earthquake caused by this fault 200 years ago...
And the fault might move between 200-400 years since its last activity (cited from Marikina Fault)

Well, I can't explain how I really feel about that..
I feel very stunned about natural occurrences...
On the other hand, there's a feeling of anxiety and paranoia that a catastrophe might happen..
After all, we are all humans, we all have our own limits, we can't predict when will be the exact time when natural calamities might happen..
All we need to do is to prepare ourselves and don't panic...
Don't panic - How can we be calm when such time happens?

Well, at first, I am astonished by such events that happened but after seeing this video, I felt doomed by distressed voices wailing.

I, then, realized that even rich countries can't bear such things...
Japan might be rich but after this thing happened, I know it would take time to recover...

Many friends in Facebook posted some status updates that THE TIME has come...
They're all thinking about Doomsday, Armageddon..

Citing this line from the Bible:
" For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be famines, pestilences, and earthquakes, in divers places. - Matthew 24:7"

I can't blame them, all the uprisings in Middle East and Africa, the Malaria outbreak in Madagscar, earthquakes in New Zealand and Japan and the tsunami that happened after the earthquake.

The only thing I hold on to is that these maybe the signs but who are we to know?
Only Him knows all things..
Only Him knows when and what will happen..
We can't even judge that The Time has come for we are all Humans...
Our minds have limits...
We can't even predict how and when catastrophes might happen...
We can't even comprehend why such things happens to us...
For we are all humans...

Out of the sudden, the concept of free-will popped out of my mind...
Yes, we all have our own free-will to do things that we want to do..
But not all of the things...
We can't control all things as we want it to be...
We can't control other people, for they too, have their own will...
We can't control disasters...
We can't control death...

Well, just thinking...